Next to You

Mmm… what time is it?

Feels early.

What time did we go to sleep last night? Mmm, can’t remember.

Oh—

Oh… oh, god.

Did we…?

You’re naked. In my bed.

And I’m… also naked.

Oh my god.

We had sex.

I’m… remembering. We had incredible sex.

I mean, we were drunk. Based on how awful I feel right now, we were really, really drunk.

Well… I guess I’m not surprised.

You and I… I mean, it feels like we’ve been circling each other for months. There’s been a kind of off-again-on-again thing between us. Romantically, anyway.

I wish I could remember more… how it started. How we ended up here.

I need water.

Big thanks to my past self for filling up my water bottle before bed.

“Mmmm, hi.”

“Hi.”

“Um…”

“What?”

“You just… you look… I don’t know. Kind of surprised or something.”

“Yeah, I, uh… I guess I was. At first.”

“Really? I’m not.”

You push your leg between mine and drape your arm over my waist. You’re taking over my pillow as you pull me into you.

“I think… it was bound to happen eventually. And I’m glad it did.”

Your mouth is soft. Warm. You pull back just half an inch and now… it’s not so much a kiss as a tease. Your lips just hovering against mine.

“You did some pretty unspeakable things to me last night…”

“From what I remember, so did you.”

“You don’t remember everything?”

“Mmm, no. I don’t think so. Help me fill in some blanks…?”

“Well… obviously everyone came back to your place after the show.”

“Mmhmm.”

“And then there was wine.”

“Yep. Remember that.”

“A lot of it.”

“Everyone was up on the balcony, right?”

“Yeah. But… I went inside to get a drink. And then I guess you followed me. You grabbed my hand, pulled me down the hall, and… here we are.”

“Mmm, it’s all coming back to me.”

“I guess everyone left when they realized we were… um, occupied.”

“Hey, look at me.”

“What?”

“You have that look.”

“What look?”

“You have this look you get when you’re not saying exactly what you’re thinking.”

“I do? How do you know—?”

“I’m your best friend. I know these things. And I think that’s what’s bothering you.”

“No, no, I… maybe? I just… I don’t want to lose you. Our friendship means… so much to me and… I can’t lose that.”

“You’re not going to lose it. If anything, we’re only going to gain from this.”

You lay a hand on my shoulder. For a moment, neither of us moves. You feel good, but… I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared.

“If we keep going… our friendship will get stronger. We’re just going to, y’know, also have mind-blowing sex.”

“It was mind-blowing.”

“It was. It was fucking awesome.”

I turn to face you again and take a moment to just… look.

You look so beautiful right now. Your hair messy and spilling all over your shoulders. The sheets just barely covering your waist.

God, I want you.

I lie back down and press my body into yours. I can’t deny how good this feels… how just touching you lights me up inside.

I pull away from the kiss so I can focus on all of the sensations happening right now. Your warm breath on my cheek. Your leg slipping between mine.

I love the feeling of your fingers playing with the hair at the back of my neck.

“Don’t be scared…”

“I’m not.”

“Nothing is going to change between us. I promise.”

“Come here…”

I let my hands drift down your sides… just trying to learn those parts of your body I don’t already intimately know.

I’ve wanted this for so long… and I know you have too.

Why did it take us so long to admit it?

“Hey. Get out of your head. Stay with me.”

“I’m sorry. You’ve got my full attention…”

“Mmm, do I?”

“Yeah… yeah, you do…”

My legs tangle in the mess of sheets as you roll on top of me. Your hands hover on either side of my ribs as you slip down to the foot of the bed.

You push my thighs apart and settle on your stomach.

Time feels… slowed down… Or maybe sped up. I’m not sure.

Whatever it is, this moment with you in between my legs, gazing up at me, it feels… out of time. Like something I can return to and relive in my mind any time I want.

I reach forward for you, blindly. My fingers brush over your scalp and I push them into your hair, pull your mouth closer to my entrance.

You push your tongue inside me.

Each stroke takes you deeper… further into me. Your tongue slides up through my folds… swirls around my clit.

I rock my hips into your mouth. I need more. I need to feel more of you.

“Oh my god… oh, more… please…”

You ease your fingers inside of me. Slow… opening me up for you.

“You sound so sexy when you moan. Keep doing it…”

I keep my eyes on yours as you crawl back up to meet my mouth. Your fingers stay buried in my folds, sliding in and out… leisurely… just spreading my wetness all around.

You’re taking your time. Easing me through each sensation.

I can feel pressure building deep inside of me, making me desperate, making me crave your touch everywhere at once…

I can taste myself on your lips. My desire mingled with the sweet remnants of whatever chapstick or lip balm you had on the night before.

You swirl your fingers around my clit and drop your lips down my jaw.

“You’re so wet…”

“For you. You’re so fucking sexy…”

You trail your lips down my neck… down my cleavage… and over to my left breast.

There’s no urgency in this… no need to hurry to the finish line. It’s just us… exploring… saying with our hands what words couldn’t.

You set your teeth on my nipple and suck. Every kiss, every bite sends new waves of pleasure through me.

I don’t want to cum yet, but I can feel myself getting closer and closer to the edge.

“Fuck…”

“Don’t—don’t make me cum, not yet.”

It takes every ounce of energy I have to sit up and guide you down onto your stomach.

I miss your fingers inside my pussy, but I can’t wait to give you what you just gave me.

I wrap my hands around your hips and pull up until your gorgeous ass is pointed right at me, your face buried in the pillows.

“Oh, fuck… please… please touch me…”

I roll my fingers down your back, across the little dimples above your ass. I palm the smooth, soft skin and inch my fingertips toward your pussy.

“You are so fucking gorgeous. Love you like this… all laid out…”

“Oh my god, I’m so wet…”

“Shhh, I know. Just let me take my time with you. Let me… show you… how bad I want you…”

“Fuck…”

I graze over your clit and through your folds with soft, barely-there touches. You’re already trying to fuck my hand… rolling your ass back into me, rocking your hips back and forth.

“Please… oh my god… fuck, fuck…”

“You want me to make you cum? Want me to fuck you?”

“Oh yes, oh my god, yes. Please, please fuck me…”

I move my fingers faster, swirl them over your clit a few times and push them just half an inch inside you.

Your whole body is vibrating, buzzing with pleasure. So is mine.

I lay a hand on your back to steady myself while I fuck you. Two fingers… sliding in and out of you… pushing you open… filling you with me…

“Oh my god, yes, yes, keep going—keep going, don’t stop—”

Your pussy feels so good around my hand… so warm and wet, welcoming me in. My arm is starting to cramp a little, but I don’t care. This feels too good to stop.

“Oh, fuck, baby, come here, come here—”

You roll onto your back, sit up, and wrap your arm tight around my neck. You bring our faces, our bodies impossibly close as I fuck you.

I shift my fingers to your clit. I work you faster, harder, and your moans get higher-pitched and desperate.

“You’re going to make me—make me cum—”

Your body trembles as the pressure releases out of you. You’re still clinging onto me when the last waves of your orgasm fade away. It’s so beautiful to watch and feel you go through that.

“Come here, come here… I’m not done with you.”

You press your fingers between us and slide them inside me once more. That fullness… fuck, I love that feeling…

Oh my god, I’m so sensitive… just the lightest touch against my clit is making my hips jerk and my breath catch.

“Fuck… fuck, right there…”

“I want to feel you cum… cum for me…”

I place my head on your chest and your arms automatically go around me.

Your heart is beating hard… your breath is still warm and fast…

I can’t think of anything to say. No words to describe what’s happening between us…

For now, I think that’s okay. I’m perfectly content just lying here… next to you…