I Did It for You

Hmmm, this looks nice, right? Let’s sit here?

Yeah, I know it’s supposed to be a picnic. People can have picnics on these tables.

That’s why it’s called a picnic table.

And, okay, yeah, maybe I forgot the blanket, okay.

Hey you’ve known me for a long time, you know I almost always forget one thing. At least I remembered the food this time!

Come sit down.

Okay, also, I think the picnic table was a good idea. The best idea, actually.

Well, unlike the grass, the bench is nice and dry.

So, if you want to soak through your clothes, be my guest.

Either way… I’ll be sitting here… enjoying my snacks.

That’s what I thought.

I’ve got orange soda, this lemon-lime stuff… what do you want?

Ah, good choice, good choice. Here.

So…. we also have some cheeses, some deli meats, some nuts. And I may have also gone to the store and gotten some pastries, too.

Okay, they’re a guilty treat, sue me. Plus, you won’t be complaining later. I got them from that place next to my apartment, they are so good.

I swear, living there is going to make me gain so much weight but I don’t even care.

I’ve really missed you, you know.

Yeah, I know I haven’t been myself lately… sorry about that. I just… I’ve had a lot going on, I guess. You know how it gets, right?

Well, yeah. You just kinda lose yourself a little, when things get rough, it’s easy to isolate yourself.

I’m sorry I haven’t been a very good friend lately. I’ll be better, I promise. I think things are… I think they’re going to start looking up for me soon. I can just feel it.

Yeah, I don’t know. I feel like today is the first day of the new me, or… the new old me, you know? Getting back to who I was… before…

Oh, no, I don’t want to monopolize our hang-out time with my drama, we don’t have to get into—

Fair point, the “old me” would have told you immediately.

Yeah, it is about… that.

Things between him and me were… yeah, not great, and I didn’t bring it up because I know how you felt about him… you know.

Anyways… things haven’t been good for a while. They’ve been terrible, actually, for a long time.

We were just… too different for each other.

And the more I thought about the things you said… when he and I got together… the more I realized you were right. The red flags… I don’t know, I guess I just kind of overlooked them because I knew I was already into him.

But yeah… I just… I couldn’t ignore them anymore. I couldn’t just pretend things were fine when they weren’t.

So, I, uh…

Yeah, I broke up with him. About two weeks ago.

Yeah, I know. I’m sorry I was radio silent, I just… I think I just needed some time, you know? To get my head straight.

And...

No, I know. I know I can tell you anything. That’s what… what’s so great about you.

I think… I just needed to figure some things out… before I saw you.

I don’t even know why I started dating him, to be honest. I think I was just a bit lonely, and he seemed sweet enough, and to be honest, I think I was just… maybe I was looking for a distraction.

Anyways… it crashed and burned, and it sucked. The ending was messy and stupid… but you know how it goes.

Yeah, we haven’t… we haven’t really talked since.

It’s not going to change. And, honestly… I’m fine with that.

I mean I guess I—

What?

Oh, what I said before? About needing a distraction?

Well, I just needed something new, you know? That’s all. And—

Damn. Yeah, okay. I guess you always could see right through me. I suck at lying, huh?

I don’t know, I guess the truth is… there’s more to it all.

I… uh… well, right before I started seeing him, I kind of realized that I—

Yeah, I was just having feelings for someone that I shouldn’t have, and I thought—

No! He wasn’t married or a coworker or anything. Nothing like that.

Well, I meant… someone in my life that I… the feelings just caught me off guard.

I just… I totally wasn’t expecting it.

I was doing some deep reflection and I realized… I don’t know, I always felt really comfortable around them and I thought… you know, I just thought it was because we were such good friends, but then…

And I was afraid of my feelings—I was so afraid of what they might say, afraid they didn’t feel the same…

You know who I’m talking about, don’t you?

It’s you. I want you. I always have. And I guess that just scared me a little… so I ran from it.

I didn’t say anything before because you weren’t single, and then when you were, I chickened out.

Oh god, I chickened out so hard.

So, I said I’d get over it and move on… and I tried to, with him. I just kind of threw myself into the first thing I found.

That didn’t turn out so well, as you know. Who’d have thought?

Anyways… I broke up with him… for you. I don’t know if you could feel the same, but—

I realized that I didn’t feel about him the way I feel about you.

I’ve never felt about anyone the way I feel about you, and I don’t want to lie to myself… or you… about that anymore.

It’s always been you.

Oh god, please say something. I hope I didn’t just… please tell me I didn’t just ruin this. Us.

Please…?

You… that was… surprising.

No. No, not complaining at all. I just… god, I’ve waited for years for you to do that.

Why didn’t you say anything? I mean if you felt… Do you feel the same way? About me?

Because I wasn’t single… and then when I was, you thought I was… avoiding you?

God, how… how are we this bad at timing?

I was only avoiding you because I thought I’d spill my guts literally any second and I didn’t want to ruin what we have for something I didn’t know you wanted!

Oh my god.

Oh, I don’t know… I’m just… really happy. Like… stupidly happy.

Your lips are so soft. I can’t believe this is really happening.

Shut up! I’m not blushing…

Okay, I’m blushing. But can you blame me?

How can I not be blushing? We just… you… and now your hand is… yep… there.

No! It’s not bad at all. I… I actually really like it. You can… move up a little… if you want.

And… maybe just… can you do that again? Please?

Yeah. I want it.

Oh my god… yeah. You can… keep going.

I know, we can’t go back after we do this, but I don’t want to go back. I want this. I want you.

You can… you can have me…. finally.

No, I don’t care that we’re in public. Just… I want to feel you. I don’t want to wait anymore.

Yeah… I like it. That we just can’t wait… that you need to keep going… keep moving your hand…

And I’ll… do the same. Right here…

You don’t even know how long I’ve thought about this…

Come here…

Mmm… you’re a good kisser. I’ve wondered for so long.

Thank you.

Yeah, I can feel it… how hard you are. It’s… it’s really fucking sexy.

I want it. I need to feel it.

Do you think… right here?

No, no one can see us. It’s okay, it’s okay. We’re alone… just… let me…

I need you…

Please…

Mmm, I love it. I love having my neck kissed… keep going. While I feel you…

Yeah… yeah, that’s a sweet… spot…

Oh god, you’re so fucking big.

Yeah, slide my thong to the side and…

fuck.

You’ve always wanted this…?

Tell me. Tell me you want me.

Yeah…? Does that feel good?

How many times have you thought about me doing this?

Hmm?

A lot? Me too.

Well… now I can do this… whenever… you want…

Right… right there…

That feels so fucking good, oh my god.

Fuck… yes.

Touch my clit… like that.

Holy fuck, you’re good at this.

Oh no, please… please don’t stop…

Don’t stop…

I know… it’s exciting, right?

Out here… in public…

anyone could find us… but I don’t care.

Okay, I’ll… I’ll try to be quiet…

Yeah… fuck me a little harder with your fingers. Please…

Please…

Oh… shit. Yes.

You feel… amazing…

Right there…

Fuck, does it feel good, when I jerk you off like this?

I love feeling you get nice and wet with precum for me… it’s so hot.

Oh, yeah… keep going. Don’t stop.

Fuck, that feels so good…

Don’t stop… Fuck me… fuck me with your fingers…

Can you feel how wet I am for you, baby?

Oh god… yeah, let me just… get on your lap. Shh, no. No one is around. I can just lift up my skirt and… slide down on top of you.

Come on, please? Don’t make me wait anymore. I need you. I need you inside me… please…

Yeah, put your hands on my thighs, I like that.

Hold me close…

Yeah, like that… I want to be close to you…

No one’s around. We’ve just got to be quiet, okay?

Ohh, oh god…

Yeah…

You feel… amazing…

I’ve wanted you for so long…

You feel so fucking good inside me. Grinding on your lap… filling me up…

Kiss me. Please…

Please… kiss me.

I know… I know, we need to be quiet.

But you just feel so good, baby… You feel amazing inside me…

Yeah… I love the way you fill me…

Yeah. You’re better, so much fucking better, so much better than him.

I only ever wanted you… only you…

Oh god… yeah. Don’t stop.

Don’t stop.

Oh fuck, I’m getting… I’m close…

Please, I need to cum…

Oh god, yes. Touch me, touch me.

Yeah, right there, right there… Don’t stop!

Fuck, just like that. Yeah… fuck!

Argh fuck, yes. Yes…

Keep going…… keep going… Take what’s yours. I’m yours. I’m yours…

Oh… oh, fuck…

You okay?

Shit, okay. Yeah, let me just climb off you.

Yeah, I’m fine. I don’t think anyone saw us…

I… just… I can’t believe we didn’t do this sooner.

Yeah… let’s finish our picnic and then… I’d love to come back to your place and keep going with… whatever it is we just started.